sleep

healthy routine feels like part of the old life afterall. somehow i didn't manage to keep it up as a routine but that's because something came in way way - my newfound abnormal sleep patterns.

after about 10 hours of wards and lectures throughout the day it would be only natural to come home dead tired desiring nothing other than to just collapse onto the bed and drift away to dreamland. however, in my case that doesn't happen - not sure why, but after all that stress i just feel quite excited/happy because it's finally the better part of the day. that makes me sorta hyper-happy and even when not externally manifested my mind and subconscious mind are somewhat too excited to take a break and nap for a bit.

which makes it kinda inconvenient because i know i'm drained as hell, and if i had to look at another one word or think of even one more disease i would throw up. and really a nap would do me good. so at that point, i can't be productive, i can't sleep, exercise was a very good idea previously but you know i got lazy and stuff.

i end up just wasting time really (not entirely a nasty thing because the feeling of doing nothing is quite amazing) and when i finally decide to be serious about work and start my reading i fall asleep quite instantly.

because of this i have had the most annoying pattern of wanting to finally take a nap, at about 10pm or 10.30pm. which is quite pointless. because i would sleep for about an hour and when i finally wake up i'd just be too slow or lazy to get anything done. and then an early night. annoyingly unproductive and useless.

best part is, despite all that sleep in the night i would still wake up late, rush to class and feel sleepy throughout.

it's possible that we may be looking at a bigger problem here, vitamin deficiency perhaps? but let's not go to that area right now, because i have a vitamin story as well, expressing it would just make me sound like an annoying complainer!